Oh, How I Adore This Song

Heartfelt Lies - Ron Pope

I walk by the river's edge

Skipping smooth wet stones

& watching them sink

I never was a fan of innocence

I've got two black eyes

& an empty fifth of gin

& I see I'm wrong for you

But we tried

You swear im hard to lay beside

If I was you i'd run from me most nights

Maybe I was meant to be left behind

Thundering circumstances

Beyond our control rumble in

Counting time by the lines 'round your eyes

As your gentle caress helps me forget

& I think it's time to say good night

& you swear im hard to lay beside

Now years seem to pass as we blink our eyes

Maybe I was meant to be left behind

But all of our heartfelt lies

All of our heartfelt lies (x2)

Are not enough this time

& I say I'd love to spend the night

But you found someone else to lay beside

& I know it makes sense

But it's like sand in my eyes

Maybe I was meant to be left behind

I absolutely, positively love this song. It's very mellow, but I just adore it. It's sad, though. Most of the time, it actually makes me cry. But that's mainly because, right now more than ever, I feel every word of that song. I feel it deeply. It's so beautiful and so relateable. He's actually quite a good artist whom I'd reccomend any day. "A Drop In The Ocean" is another good song of his.

An Ulcer Waiting To Happen

It really is a wonder to me that I have never had an ulcer. I have the most nervous stomach & I stress over stupid things. I have that overly-worried, stressed out feeling and I don't have a clue in the world why. But it's killing me and I do not feel good at all. It drives me crazy. I cannot figure it out. Nothing's going on, so I don't have a reason to worry or stress over anything, but just...BLECKK!! I feel like crap! lol. Not cool. I don't think it helps any that the weather is changing, I have terrible sinuses, and I didn't sleep worth a darn last night. I've been up since 6 for no real reason other than I couldn't sleep. I'm the most horrible insomniac you could ever imagine. Seriously. I think I'm gonna go try to lay down for a while and write more later.

xoxoxo

Happy Birthday, Michael

So, today would have been Michael Jackson's 51st birthday. His death has officially been ruled a homicide and I can't tell you how angry that makes me or how much it breaks my heart. I loved Michael more than I can say. He's my favorite singer and always has been. I had his music in times when I had nothing else in the world. I had his words to bring me comfort and a sense of being understood at times when I was lost, hurt and alone. His music provided me with a much-needed escape from life when life wasn't worth it; A light in dark times. And for all he's done for me, for how he's made me feel, I will love and treasure him always. May you finally be at peace, Michael. Happy Birthday.

All In A Day

Gosh, I'm freaking sore!! Uckk. lol. I got up early and walked this morning, but didn't do my other exercises. I hurt and figured "screw it." Plus, it's hot and humid today and a bit stuffy in the house. I guess a day off won't kill me. It may be detrimental to other parts of my body, but it's not altogether damaging.

Ahh, anyway...I have come to discover that at any point, during any day and on almost any channel, you will find that The Golden Girls are on. lol. I've spent half a day before, watching them. I love that show! I know I've seen nearly every episode 150 times, but I love it. Seriously, it is always on.

I need to get my other pictures hung up. Marilyn Monroe pictures. I looove her. She's my idol and has been since I was just a little girl. I always wanted to be her. I think she's a big part of why I've wanted to be an actress since I was 2. Or a "movie star." lol. I definitely want to be her for Halloween. I've wanted to be for the past few years, but something always comes up. Two years in a row I was really sick =/ Go figure, right?

I guess most of the time, my life is pretty boring. Maybe one day before long I'll have more to write about, it all just greatly depends on the day, as I'm sure you all know. I'm considering college, but it was just never where my heart was, so I don't know. My eye doctor told me last week that I had an eye disease called "Choroideremia." My dad has it and it night blind and has no peripheral vision as a result. But the thing about this disease is, A) It's incredibly rare and B) It's dependent on the gender of the first born child. It's only a male disease, typically, and females are just carriers. But, I have it somehow. It will likely never be as severe as my dad has it, but there's no way to tell how it will progress, so I need to have my eyes photographed every 6 months. How fun. But he said furthering my education wouldn't hurt and the school I'm considering isn't far and has an excellent theater program. Plus, it's a great town that I adore and full of hippies!! lmao. I love it<33>

Have you ever had someone in your life who not just gave you butterflies, but made them go crazy and set your heart on fire?...Just curious. Well, okay, I just don't wanna talk about it. ha.

I guess that's about all I have to say for now. More later!!

xoxoxox

Firsties

Ooh, first blog! Most exciting. I haven't written one really worth reading for a while. But I've always blogged on MySpace. I now have another outlet! Thank you, CJ lovee!!<33 He's such a little dear.

Oh my gosh! I'm so sore! My legs, back, arms, abs...I've been working out the past couple of days and the moves I do hurt like crazy. lol. I've been walking in the morning to loosen the tension and then dancing later when I regain my mobility. Oh, I tell you, the things we females do, right? It's insane!! But I guess I don't get called "Barbie" for looking like total crap...even though I do most days. lol. But shhhhhh! We'll keep that our secret ;)

Hmmmm, well, I think I probably ought to get off here now. But I wanted a sign-in blog and I will most definitely return soon!

Goodnight && sweet dreams to all.
BIG HUGS & KISSES xoxoxoxox
Muah!! ~Arielle