I Want...

I want to act. To be a famous movie actress one of these days. If it were up to me, I'd be one already. One of those child stars. lol. But, it never played out that way and I accept it.


I want to get married and have at least two children; One girl and 1 boy.


I plan to live in Texas for a little while, at least. Or make it my permanent residence with time spent wherever my work may lead me, naturally.


Hopefully I'll be on Oprah someday. lol. I loove Oprah. And I'd love to win an Oscar. That's one of my biggest dreams.


I love singing and dancing, so I'd like to have a career as a singer as well. Does that sound too ambitious? haha, Some people have done it and done it successfully, I'd like to be one of them...maybe win a Grammy award. lol, Dream big or not at all.


I'm planning, as of right now, to start school in the Spring at OU where there's a good theatre program. I'm kind of excited. I'm moving to Texas in a couple of years, Corpus Christi or maybe Dallas. I have a lot of family down that way and I've never been there.

I want to finally start having a real life. I kind of did for a while and then things got away from me for this reason and that reason. I want to have this feeling back that there's someone out there who gives a damn about me. I was almost happy for a while. I had freedom. I've yet again allowed myself to become my own prisoner and that's the most confining prison to live in.

I want to love again. To love like I was never hurt. I believe in love. How can it not exist? Look around and you're sure to find it somewhere. I know who I want, it's just a matter of positive thinking right now...I'm lacking in that area, but I know I can do this. I believe. But, love is a whole 'nother story entirely and that's far too ambitious a writing project for me right now. lol.

There are so many things I want to do. So many things I want out of this life and I just hope I can do it all and do it all well. But most of all, in addition to love, I just want to be happy. I don't know that I ever have truly been happy in my life and that is my greatest dream of all. To be happy and to find love. Those are the only two things we really need in the very end...<3